You know those little blogger awards that float around the inner-blog world sometimes? I feel like I should start one called the "WORST BLOGGER" and nominate myself as the first winner. Agreed? Sorry!
I've been thinking about how to write this post for a while now, and - honestly - I imagined it would be a little more sentimental and a lot more intentional. Instead, I just kind-of feel the words coming right now, so I'm going to go with it. I hope I'll make some kind of sense.
Over the last five years, blogging has become SUCH a big part of my life and my identity. Some might consider that a bad thing (and understandably so, I guess), but I feel pretty sure that my fellow "bloggers" get it. Lately, since I lost my web domain and have had to make some changes here... I've been thinking a lot about how "blog E" and "real life" E go together. I think I've been real all along (actually, I promise I have), but I've also changed a lot in the last five years. When I started this blog, I was in such a different place in life, and only beginning to figure out who I am. Since then, I've switched positions at work a few times, become a mom, and added A LOT of gray hairs on my head. Also, in large part because of this space, I've grown to have a clearer idea of WHO I am, and who/what I'm called to be.
After some serious thinking, talking to dear friends, researching, and praying, I have decided to officially retire E, Myself, and I at the end of this month.
No, this really wasn't planned. I gave the idea of "re-branding" (which is trendy blog-talk for "changing names") some serious consideration back in the summer before Blogher, and then again after Allume (which - as a side note - I've revisited and thought a lot about what I learned there in the last few weeks). I also had been tossing around the idea of making the switch to Word Press (because that's what the cool-cat bloggers do, right?); but, honestly, I was pretty darn content with things the way they were here...
As I've said before, I never expected E, Myself, and I to be anything more than a fun place for me to write and - hopefully - have a few dozen friends read and comment once in a while. YOU - this community, these friendships - FAR exceeded my hopes for my blogging "career." I think we had/have a good thing going here, and I was happy not to change things up. As far as I was concerned, E, Myself & I was as "branded" as it was going to get and we'd be happily chugging along for another five years...
BUT, I really like lemonade (especially Diet Lemonade at Chickfila); so, when life handed me lemons - in the form of a "lost" domain and a number of other blog-related inconveniences - I've chosen to make the best of a bad situation and use this opportunity to take some risks I would have otherwise been too afraid/lazy/comfortable to take.
My new blog is going to be A LOT of the things you've already come to know and love here. But, it is also going to be MORE of the things that really matter to me - things like being a mom, pursing my calling towards teaching, finding balance as a working mom, and showing myself (and other moms) lots of grace. If E, Myself, and I was about my "journey towards adulthood," my new space is going to be more about where that journey has taken me, what I've discovered about myself in the process, and what I want to be passionate and purposeful about NOW.
In keeping with my word for the year, my new blog is also going to be a little LESS. Less clutter. Less advertising. Less obligation. As much as I am grateful for four and a half years on record here, I have written over 1,000 posts and - frankly - it overwhelmed me sometimes. I'm excited to wipe the slate (mostly) clean and give myself the freedom to go back to the basics with my blogging. (Don't worry, E, Myself, and I will live forever in the archives here.)
It is a fresh start for me... One that I'm SUPER nervous about, but simultaneously very excited for too. It was time. You know? I'm excited to launch a new space that is a better reflection of who I am NOW and not just - as I've focused on a lot in the past - who I am not.
So, sweet friends, like I said, this wasn't a super eloquent announcement or anything like that. Really, I just didn't want to leave you in the dark anymore. YOU are what have made this place a huge part of my life - not the name or the web site - and I don't want to move on without you. Will you join me?
Again, I'm sorry for the absence here lately. I'm at a funny in between right now... Working on design and content for my new place; so, feeling a little unmotivated and uninspired here. At the same time, I miss blogging, and I want to continue having this "meeting place" until everything is ready to go at the new spot. I miss having this little community to check-in with every day, and hearing from all of YOU. THAT is how I know I'm not ready to give up all together yet...
My new blog will be launching (on Wordpress - fancy, huh?) somewhere around my birthday on March 26th. Please mark your calendars, or something, and plan to come to the party! OK?
*I promise I'll be as clear as possible in directing you to my new site. BUT, now might be a good time to follow me on Twitter/Facebook/Instagram to make sure you don't miss any announcements!
In the meantime, I would LOVE some additional feedback from you about what you'd like to see for the future? What do you look for in a blog? What do you need? How can we connect? Truly, I value your opinion SO much, and would love any ideas or advice you have to offer!
Don't be sad, k? I love you all!
P.S. In case you don't follow me on Instagram, you may have missed that my dear Poppy passed away on Saturday. I'm hoping to spend some time writing about his last few days and the incredible role he played in all 29.75 years of my life SOON. Look for that early next week.